Okay, so I know usually under “food” you’ll find all the loverly recipes that Boyfriend and I make, but today I’ve got something a bit more personal.
I have a confession to make. I really haven’t been loving myself lately. And I don’t mean in a casual ‘eh, I’m okay’ kind of way. I have been actively disliking my body, not taking great care of myself, and putting myself in a generally negative place.
Three weeks ago I got a new running app in the hopes of losing some weight. In the app you listen to a story set in the zombie apocalypse, and periodically, zombies chase you. I don’t actually like zombies, or running, and my first run left me almost sobbing and sore for a week. I WAY over did it, and while working out is good for you, that wasn’t good for me.
Friday, I stepped on the scale and saw the highest number I’d ever seen there. It broke me. I cried a lot, and I felt depressed for most of the weekend. I let myself focus on all of the stress I had in my life and all of the things I hate about my body.
It’s time for that to stop.
I know I won’t be able to change my entire way of thinking with one blog post, but I’m going to try, with time. My body is strong and beautiful. It lets me run and dance and sing and laugh and kiss and hold hands and hug and eat and walk and jump and play. It’s amazing. Just because I don’t like how much fat is around my middle does not give me a right to forget that.
But I’m also not at a healthy weight. So I’ve decided to adopt a few habits that will help me remember to love myself while working towards a healthier me. I’ll try these six (ish) rules, for two weeks and see what happens.
1. I’ll do something out of self love everyday. It could be painting my nails, snuggling with Boyfriend, having coffee with a gal pal, or treating myself to a (not too unhealthy) treat, guilt-free.
2. I will eat two servings of vegetables at lunch and dinner. I don’t get enough veggies, and I’m hoping a concrete goal will help me fix that.
3. I will get 8 hours of sleep each night.
4. I will drink those 64 oz of doctor recommended water everyday.
5. I will keep a food journal, not to punish myself when I splurge, but to keep myself mindful of what I put into my body.
6. I will work out twice a week. I know myself and my schedule. I’ve tried to work out every day. It doesn’t happen. Twice a week is a manageable number, and I’m hoping that as I find routines that work for me I may be able to add in a third.
I have a couple other more general rules, like eating breakfast every morning, heading off negative thoughts, thinking more thoroughly about the calories that are in any alcohol I drink, drinking green tea in the morning, and trying to make workouts fun (with that running app, books on tape, and company).
I’m going to take control of the way that I feel about myself and the health of my body. Look for healthier meals on this blog for the next two weeks, and, if you’re interested, updates on how this list of rules is working for me, at the bottom of the recipes.
Thanks! 🙂 Wish me luck.
Disclaimer on the running app: it’s called Zombies, Run! and I actually highly recommend it. I’ve used it several times since the first time, and really enjoyed having a story to move to. Just don’t over do it. I did turn off the random zombie attacks for a while, because they were making me anxious, but they are back on now. The story keeps you coming back, and gives you something to focus on.